Do not think about the things of the past. See, I will do a new thing. It will begin happening now. Will you not know about it? I will even make a road in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert.Isaiah 43:18-19
You will not believe how much things have shifted since the last time I wrote. If you read my recovery blog last season, then you know I’m the “forever single” gal, that I know more about being someone’s child than someone’s parent. You’re also aware that I’ve made my fair share of mistakes and that all of the lessons God has taught me along the way, I had to learn the hard way. I wrote the first season of my blog series, The Recovery GlowUp According to Norma, from my past accumulated experiences because they were lessons I lived and learned through, and I felt confident in sharing them.
This season I’m writing from a place that’s (literally and figuratively) out of my comfort zone. The facts are that life has shifted, and some of my views and priorities have shifted too. Some things have remained constant though we’re still chasing Jesus, striving for a glow-up, and working on recovery.
Without guidance, a people will fall, but with counselors there is deliverance. ~Proverbs 11:14
Currently, I feel like a visitor in someone else’s life, and there are things that I haven’t addressed because, mentally, I haven’t been able to wrap my mind around them. There’s so much bottled up that I’ve learned over the past few months, and I’ve been reluctant to share it. Much of it has been about my attempts at parenthood, the woes of leaving my queendom, and living with a house full of people. You know, family life. Not being a birth parent made me feel like I had no right to light the way for anyone when it came to that subject due to my lack of experience, regardless of whether it was my current truth.
Thank God for my sweet friend and fellow member of the glow fam Cheryl who spoke life to me. This gem of a woman reminded me that we share our truths. No matter how different things look daily, these are still my truths, and I have every right to share them. Cheryl was right; she gave me the encouragement and reassurance I needed to hear. After that, my mentality shifted, and our conversation made way for the second season of my blog series. I have a story to tell God is not finished here. So what if things shifted? I share my truths. That’s what I signed up for, and I will continue to do it no matter how it looks from the outside.
Suddenly there was such a violent earthquake that the foundations of the prison were shaken. At once all of the prison doors flew open, and everyone’s chains came loose. ~Acts 16:26
I did all the things I could do in my power, extended more grace than I ever thought possible, and asked God to take it away, and he didn’t. The rock I could always turn to was no longer there, so I isolated myself because nothing else was working. I set certain boundaries because I know I’m likelier to entertain my demons from a dark place. Yet there I was, sitting on your sofa, feeling trapped in my own house and secretly hoping someone would call and offer me a bag of heroin. I never wished I was dead, but a few months ago, I did. That’s when I knew it was time for me to shift.
The truth is that I found myself in a position outside of my comfort zone, the boundaries I set were crossed. Mentally and emotionally I was in a scary place. I faced some ugly truths and then stood silent as my support system unraveled. Life shifted when my boundaries were crossed and I thank God because the alternative would have been death.
For we are not fighting against flesh and blood enemies, but against evil rulers, in authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places. ~Ephesians 6:12
We have so much more to talk about so for now I will leave you with this, if you cannot pray your way through it, try shifting. Take the leap of faith because God will not shake your nest until you are ready to fly.
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